That’s a wordy title, isn’t it? But last week, after feeling a bit cornered and down, it’s the exact question I asked myself one night while falling asleep. I was feeling exhausted from a day of overworking myself (because old habits die hard) and wondered why, when I have the ability to choose how I live each and every single day, this tiresome occurrence was continuing to happen.
As of right now, I wouldn’t say that my relationship with money is a positive one … but I’m working on it. You see, as soon as I started to “make a living” doing what I love, it became instinctual for me to protect my earnings. To not treat myself or invest in new things, even though I could. For some reason, I couldn’t shake the feeling that my dream job could end at any moment and that I should be prepared in case anything ever happened. But that’s not a very positive mindset to have, is it? Instead of investing in the future and enjoying the present, I was saving for catastrophe, whatever I made that out to be in my head.
I was a machine when I first started freelancing. Fresh out of design school and living in my childhood bedroom, I worked 12 hour days, everyday, in order to make ends meet and prove that I could successfully run a business. But those days weren’t filled with a plethora of clients or money. It was more of a boots on the ground situation, where I spent the majority of my time marketing, networking, and doing everything I could to put myself out there. And it worked.
I don’t know about you, but I’ve been terrible at making good choices in the morning over the past few years. I have this bad habit of picking up my phone almost instantly, launching myself into work mode before I’m fully awake. But over the last few weeks, I’ve been taking steps towards breaking old habits. And because I know that others are most likely in the same boat, I thought I’d share what I’m doing with you. Plus, this will give me more accountability to follow through. So let’s do this together, shall we?
Earlier this week, a reader of ours asked what it’s like to run your own business as an introvert, something that I (Bre here) most definitely am. An INFJ, to be exact, if you’re into personality assessments or care about specifics. In fact, my own introversion is a huge reason why I began working for myself in the first place. I not only love setting my own boundaries and working from home, but also don’t mind (and actually quite enjoy) taking on the huge responsibility of running an entire business. For the most part … it’s a dreamy situation, perfectly suited and adapted for who I am. But sometimes it’s messy and lonely and tough to navigate, which I’m sure other introverts can relate to. So how do I deal with it? More on that below.
I’m one of those people who is constantly thinking about what’s next. What’s for dinner tonight? Where is my next client coming from? When (and where) am I going to go on a vacation? But recently, the one that’s come up the most is probably about my next move as a business owner. I ask myself this question daily, in search of answers or those brilliant AHA moments everyone talks about. But most of the time, my mind goes numb, leaving me frustrated and confused.
I’ve always enjoyed peeking into the routines of others and thought I would share my own with you as well. But here’s the thing … what I’m about to outline is NOT my ideal schedule. It’s in progress. As much as I preach wellness and try to infuse it into my every day as best as I can, I know that I haven’t quite yet hit a healthy working groove if I’m being completely honest. Some days are better than others – and I’m continually trying to figure out what works best for me. So for today, I’m going to share my current routine as well as a few goals I have for bettering my work / life balance as a whole. This is my way of holding myself accountable. ;)
A little over a year ago, I went to my current chiropractor for the first time, sat down, and told her that I thought my work was killing me. That’s me being a little dramatic. What I really meant was to discuss the effects of having a desk job. At that point, I could barely get through fifteen minutes of work without laying flat on the floor in sheer pain. My muscles were strained, my posture wasn’t great, and it radiated throughout my body day in and day out while I constantly wondered how I would keep this up for years to come. Spoiler alert: a LOT had to change in order for me to feel good again, both mentally and physically, and kicking old habits has become a regular part of my everyday routine.